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Couchella Weekend 1 Discoveries

My discoveries from Coachella weekend watching it on the livestream.  Really that is all there is to this. Check it.

 The Pretty One:  A$AP Rocky

He has really good rhymes and flow. You should check him out. In all the ways.


The Sex: Gallant

His songs are sexy as all everything. The live performance was on point too. For reference he is close to Weeknd/Miguel.


Grr Awesome: Savages

This band was a beautiful revelation for me. I got so happy seeing their set that I saw it a second time. Great rock awesome.


Innovation(for me): Zhu

No idea if it is a new idea or not (I assume not) but this is first electronic outfit that has SAXOPHONE SOLOS. Now I want Careless Whisper-esque saxophone solos in every song. Every song.


The New Generation:  Vince Staples

He was paired up against Ice Cube the Livestream and for me overshadowed Ice Cube. I don’t know why it too me so long to actually listen to Vince Staples. He is amazing. Me and You need to listen to him more.


The Lovely Suprise: Zella Day

I didn’t know what to expect from her but I got a strong voice with great music. It makes me happy.


The Strange One: Shamir

It is hip-hop and electronica with a squeaky voice but some how it works for me. I understand if this isn’t your thing but try at least once.


The One That Made me Cry: Meg Myers

I didn’t know what to expect and I got this woman that sings like the girls from the 90s. All that raw emotion. I ended up crying.


The One I Forgot Were Good: The Vandals

I saw the Vandals when I was like 18 or 19?  I didn’t really know them then but loved them. Seeing them today I forgot that I do love them so much. They are a funny punk band but solid with the music. Like really solid.




Colourpop Ultra Satin Lip Review


Earlier this week I received a good selection of the new Colourpop Ultra Satin Lip products. They come in the same tubes as the Ultra Matte Lip products and apply in the same manner.  Overall I am a fan  but feel they aren’t distinctive enough from other liquid lipsticks to warrant a huge purchase.  Here are my pros and cons-



  • Long lasting. I’ve worn it all day (13 hours) and it is still going strong on my lips. There have been two minor reapplications to the inner circle of my lips.
  • The colors are gorgeous and rival Kat Von D in uniqueness. London Fog was my color of choice today and I felt gorgeous.
  • The slight bit of shine on them is cute.
  • Colourpop price point of $6 is great.
  • It does feel slightly less drying than other liquid lipsticks.


  • They transfer on everything. It isn’t lip lipstick levels but it will never be transfer proof.
  • It was drying enough on my lips to make me wonder where the word satin comes into play.
  • For most in the liquid lipstick game these will appear redundant.

That last point in cons is where I am at. The pros are higher but since I own so many liquid lipsticks that can dupe for these colors, it feels a bit wasted. The fact that they transfer is annoying since they are just as drying as a liquid lipstick.

However I do love some of these colors. The descriptions of the colors swatched below are as follows:

marshmallow: grayed out lavender
prim: dark blackened red
panda: deep pink violet
the rabbit:  bright fuchsia with subtle blue sheen
london fog: blue-toned red
cozy: orange red

Of the ones I own The Rabbit is probably the most unique for me and the one I am most curious to try next. London Fog and Cozy are the ones that are easily dupeable.

Boxycharm – February 2016

Leap Day William gifted me something better than candy, a beautiful Boxycharm. I did not expect this box as I had signed up mid-month and expected to start in March. So first- squee. Second I am already happy with this subscription.

My first boxycharm. #boxycharm #boxyrush @boxycharm

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I got the following

  • Spongelle You Have My Heart on A String ($15)
    Essentially fancy soap on a rope. I had one other I ended up giving a way because the smell wasn’t exactly me but this one is more floral.  Excited to try fancy soap on a rope.
  • Beauty For Real Blush + Glow Stick  ($24)
    The double ended light saber of the make-up world. It will not cut off your hand (not to my knowledge). The blush is a gorgeous coral shade and the highlighter is a subtle goldish color.  I love these creamy roll on blushes/highlighters because they work well for my dry skin.   In a pinch you could try to use it as an actual highlighter.
  • Shray Ms Amazing Facial Mask  ($12)
    Be creepy and moisturize. I really do feel a bit like Cassandra from Doctor Who with these sheet masks. Or a potential serial killer, or a plastic surgery junkie. Either way kind of creepy and borderline psychotic. But so moisturizing and soft.  Thus I am excited to try a new mask.
  • Ofra Banana Powder Godet ($12)
    I have heard things about the concept of banana powder. I guess the Hourglass Ambient Lightning powder in Diffused Light is this. So nevermind – I do have this. It is great. I use it to set my under-eye concealer and as an all over face powder at times. Which according to this card is all possible uses. Yay I did things right! I am curious to try this version which is much cheaper than my Hourglass one (45 vs 12)
  • Freeze 24-7 Anti-Aging Eye Serum ($58)
    I do believe in good skin care to apply make-up well and just to be good to your skin. However the idea of adding another process to my routine isn’t exciting. I have face serum and now another serum. Oh and if anyone was like me and didn’t know. Serum is what you put on before moisturizer.  At least two steps after cleaning.  I get lazy really quickly I want my routine to be effective but simple. This is complicated but I will still try it.
  • Realtree For Her ($12)
    Perfume which is always a dicey thing because smell is so objective. However I have learned something new: I smell amazing. This perfume in the bottle and initially on me was okay just a bit sweet and whatever. Then after 30 minutes, it is sensual, sweet, and yummy. My natural body makes smells better. So yeah whatever perfume, yummy me.



Yeezy Season 3 – The Life of Pablo

These are rough rough notes I made after attending the Yeezy Season 3/Album broadcast in a local movie theater.

It’s reflective in only the way a Kanye album of today can be: arrogant, hurt, focused on god, at times, while all aware of himself and his position.

While the album is wholly good and interesting and full of typical Kanye complexity, such a personal record is  a strange listen while staring at the vacant stares of models. Is that the point or were the fashion show and album streaming just thrown together as an idea?

Highlights from the album
-Thinking sex with Taylor Swift is possible because he made her famous
-Then later saying he gave up women to save his family (Usher much)
-Girls that always be textin
-Calling out Ray J that Kanye is better because he has money.
-Ultra Light Beam is one of the tightest songs I have heard in a while. It made me cry.
-If I remember correctly I think he wanted a camera on his dick and then it evolved to being such a good amateur videographer that he should “go pro”

The fashion show was this interesting: group of models dressed in stylish, derelict attire. The cameras holding long poses on all parts of the models body and faces creating this weird intimacy. You know the models knew they would be filmed but did they know to what focus and intent? Watching it on a screen in a movie theater thousands of miles away it felt almost like violating  privacy. When standing somewhere, we do expect to be seen but not so much up close and not for so long.

When you take that and compare it against the other factors that the cameras were focused on: Kanye and his all male crew of friends and  the Kardashian family  all dressed in furs and matching clothing there becomes these unique sectors to this massive arena. The fans were only shown for a brief moment after the main listening of the album was finished.

With Kanye you see a lot of intent and planning so you want to assume there is some greater purpose to all of this. Some message of an ensemble full of mostly African-American models juxtposed  to a Kanye record that isn’t full of the anger like Yeezus but a more personal anger. That anger could be applied to the crowd as a whole. I dunno. It is interesting to think of how much of this crowd of muted colored models juxtaposed with the stark white family he has adopted as his own was intentional or just becasue white clothes looked good.


Kanye showed twice a trailer for a video game he made about his mom going to heaven. He showed it twice because the crowd was understandably stunned the first time. He exclaimed that it was hard to make the game, citing developers don’t think a rapper can make a game. He didn’t realize the issue wasn’t that we underestimate the ability of a rapper to make a good game,  it was because it was about his mom. Rising to heaven as an angel. Having his group of yes men around him has shielded him from this. Or he knows and wants to shield himself.

That is the fascinating part about Kanye. His speech and his rhymes indicate this level of self-awareness that is lost on most people. But then the does things like the video game trailer or saying he wants to be the creative director for Hermes (pronouncing it wrong) or saying how hard it was to fly around the world while making the album/fashion show. He is so human that most of us cannot deal with him. We want to label him with a myriad of negative names but he is reflective of all of us. How we would be in all of the extraordinary situations he has been in. How we would need to be to get to those extraordinary situations. IT does take ego and the ability to apologize later to be able to exceed the boundaries he has.

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This Week in Vivi

In celebrity world this has been a sad week with the passing of David Bowie and Alan Rickman. I did my best to try to find some rays of sunshine in this week and I am sharing them all with you:

  • Adele, just Adele
    Fine I will be more specific. I love her new album, 25 so so much. I cry listening to certain songs. Even more specific watch this Carpool Karaoke with James Corden
  • Cathedrals by Ruby Amanfu
    I discovered Ruby on a Best of 2015 playlist and fell in love with this song. Her voice is beautiful and the song is charming and sweet. For me it reminds me of a mix of Regina Spektor and Damien Rice.
  • Girl Online by Zoe Sugg
    Yes a novel by a Youtuber but the book is cute and charming. It is a perfect teen romance fluff book with some uniqueness. For teens or adults experiencing anxiety and panic attacks it is sweet and kind of helpful. I really enjoyed the book.
  • Movies
    It is Oscar season so I have been watching a ton of movies so here are two suggestions if you are able to see these:

    •  Creed– It is a great drama. It may make you cry. It will make you cheer. It is real too and directed so so well. Also the music is phenomenal.
    • 45 Years–  Beautiful and subtle.  It may seem slow but if you take a deep breath and focus you will find yourself enveloped in a  bleak world that makes you truly understand two people so well in less than 2 hours.
  • Critical Role 
    It is live Dungeons and Dragons that is played on Thursdays via Geek and Sundry Twitch. It is 3+ hours of adventure and hilarity and so much emotion. It also stars people that you will eventually fall in love with.  You can start by checking out episode 1 from YouTube and go on from there.
  • Vlogbrothers
    Hank and John Green comprise of said Vlogbrothers who blog to each other (and us) two times a week. This week’s video from John was particularly great. talking about Star Wars and what it means to create something and send it off into the world.

And after you get through with all of the above or you just want to have a snuggle-in weekend- I suggest watching Galaxy Quest, Harry Potter movies, and listening to Hunky Dory.


Golden Globes 2016

I am way on top of movie watching this year for the Golden Globes. There were only two movies of the Best Drama/Comedy nominations that I have not seen. I am doing my best to prep for Oscar nominations.

Overall the awards show were happy making for most of the winners. It wasn’t super entertaining but entertaining enough. Here are my notes:

  • Ricky Gervais overall was whatever. There were a couple of good jokes but most seemed forced or were flat.
  • Jonah Hill as the bear was mildy humorous.
  • Kate Winslet beat Alicia Vikander and Jennifer Jason Leigh. I don’t know how to process that. She was good in Steve Jobs. I just don’t know if better than the other two women.
  • I need to watch the Affair. I think I have Showtime. It is on Showtime right?
  • What the fuck is Mozart in the Jungle? It won a couple of awards and I have no idea what this show is about. I have had an hour to look it up and I can’t be bothered.
  • I don’t need to see Wolf Hall but I am buying a Powerball ticket 1.3 billion says what?
  • Things I would do with 1.3 billion
    • Travel
    • Buy a bunny ranch (actual bunnies, you perv)
    • collection of high-heels I can’t walk in. Maybe hire someone to walk in the shoes for me. OR better yet higher two people to hold me up as I walk in the heels.
    • Jungle gym for Cinnamon
    • Can you buy a green card?
    • Champagne and macarons all the fucking time.
    • Hiring a chef to make croissants, sushi, and arancini for me.
    • Buying an Italian villa next do to Clooney “howdy neighbor, have any sugar?”
  • Yayaya Oscar Issac won for Show Me a Hero!! Show #345 I haven’t finished.
  • More things I would do with money:
    • movie theater
    • dining room table chairs (I really need some)
    • electric griddle
  • Jason Statham is funny and hot.  Also I need to see Spy again. You should too if you haven’t.
  • Tom Ford presented an award with Lady Gaga. No idea why he is there except maybe he is an inspiration for Todd Haynes? I love Tom Ford lipsticks and blush. Oh that eyeshadow is amazing too.
  • Christian Slater won for Mr. Robot. Yayay. Oh “Squee, eek yes” – 15 year old Vivi.
  • How much would it cost to get Massive Attack to play for some private time?
  • How much would it cost to convince Adele to come to San Diego. Wait a minute I am filthy rich, I will just go to her. Fine Adele , you win this time.
  • Jamie Foxx – the inside joke man. And bad joke man. Best description from Scott Aukerman ” Weirdly, Jaime Foxx is exactly as funny as he thinks he is.”
  • Enino Morricone Squee for Hateful Eight Soundtrack. QT with the acceptance speech of errors but so much respect and love.
  • Jon Hamm won. “Squee, eek yes” – Today Vivi
  • I want to see Trainwreck again.
  • Matt Damon/Inside Out won. I have nothing funny or poignant to say except good on you.
  • Brad Pitt/ Ryan Gosling. One sandwich I didn’t know could exist in this world.
  • Political Vivi is annoyed by when people talk about the Holocaust like we are going to forget the Holocaust. 1. You won’t let us movie making people. 2. You act like it is the only horrible act of genocide ever. It isn’t and it is still happening which you refuse to acknowledge.
  • Lady Gaga won for American Horror Story. I don’t know if she is actually good or not. I will not try to judge though Leo did .
  • SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEE SAM SMITH WON. He is my non sexual bae.
  • Mel Gibson making a joke that he didn’t say those hateful things, isn’t funny. Just creepy and weird that he is allowed to present with no fucking thing to promote.
  • Mr. Robot won! Show #1245 that I haven’t finished.
  • Side note: dude is making an e-reader that works with a vibrator. Sad if the book that makes you come the hardest is Johnny Get His Gun. Though that is a whole tag on xHamster.
  • The Martian won! So happy I finally watched that movie today. Though I think it should be re-titled to The Martian: lets just trash a planet.
  • A Whole Room for just Make-up.
  • Every time I see Will Smith being nominated or promoting Concussion, I think of current epis of Doug Loves Movies and his “tell the truth” impression.
  • LEO FUCKING WINS. And he got a standing ovation. So so happy
  • Also with Leo and Christian Slater winning it is like the Golden Globes are awarding teen Vivi all of her dreams.
  • LEARNING: Baader-Meinhof Phenomenon or the Frequency Illusion:
    • The thing you just found out about now seems to pop up everywhere. It happens because our brain isolates that thing and we unconsciously see it out now.
    • My current, unfortunate, version of this is Farrah Abraham  (from Teen Moms?) which seems to be one of the most trite people in this world. I would say useless but she has a child that she has to at least act like she cares about in order to main celebrity. Though I heard she is selling a silicone version of her vagina. How would you feel to find your mom’s vagina at a garage sale when you are 16. How much therapy do you need for that?
  • A special Screening of Zoolander
  • A screening of something that gets Tilda Swinton in the same room as me
  • Stationery Room
  • Revenant wins! I just saw this movie on Friday and I am so so so so happy that it won. Squee. It is an amazing, meticulous movie.

Christmas Vacation Awesome List

I had a long vacation around Christmas and these are some awesome things about that time. I am that simple:

Hateful Eight

I saw the movie 3 times in the theater.  Two of the times was the three hour roadshow version that had an overture and intermission and the third was the regular digital projection. This movie is almost perfection for me. It has all of the elements I love in a Quentin Tarantino move (dialogue/violence) but done with this epic scope precision unlike any of his other movies. It is simple but so focused on faces or a jar of jelly beans. Sometimes you want the dish with 1000 ingredients but there are times where you can appreciate the one that only has 8.



If you know anything about me, I am balling/YOLO-ing hard most every day. I finally had a week or so where I didn’t nee to YOLO so early. See children I am hip like you.  Sleeping in is amazing and beautiful.



Instead of Christmas, we had Bourbonmas. Brunch was adorned with 4 types of bourbon- perfect for coffee, eggnog, or with some ice and bitters. It made brunch a beautiful lovely thing.

Frends Headphones


I was seriously blessed this Christmas with presents and one of the most glorious are these headphones. They are Rose GOLD!!! They sound good too. But they are so pretty!!

Sheet Masks


Santa also brought me an epic ton of sheet masks and I love using them. They are 20 minutes of looking like the creepiest thing in the world to just end up being the most baby-butt soft thing in the world.


It is chilly and these are the best thing for a San Diego girl that isn’t used to San Diego being actually cold. Santa blessed me with a couple and I have been wearing comfy sweaters on the regular. I am like you people who live in cold.

Nest Candles (Hearth/Holiday)


I have grown to love having candles lit to add yummy smells to the Casa. My two favorite ones are the Holiday and Hearth scents from Nest. Holiday smells like Christmas and Hearth smells like a fireplace. So much so I was somewhere that had a real fireplace and wondered if they were burning that candle. I do not understand the concept of a fireplace. But I do know how to light a candle.

Doctor Who Christmas Special


It was the perfect episode. Fun, sweet, sentimental. Exactly what I want from a Doctor Who Christmas special. They are always a kind of stand-alone bridge concept and this one executed it perfectly. I think it is in my top of the Christmas specials.